The Secret Garden

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I’ve recently attended a Sisterhood Event at my church, where Pastor Julie Mullen’s talked about the Oak tree and Orchid. She broke it down to the point of telling us how both plants 🌱 grew. The Oak tree 🌳 is planted and after it’s planted in the ground it just grows. No matter the weather conditions hot, or cold it just grows . To the point you don’t even have to water it. On the other hand the Orchid doesn’t. You have to plant the Orchid in a pot with the right potting soil . It has to have a certain amount of water πŸ’§. A certain amount of sunlight β˜€οΈ etc, to stay alive. Then she went on to say how we are sometimes like the Orchid when life’s conditions doesn’t suit us we stop growing. We start going to church β›ͺΒ and when we feel our lives Β are perfect we stop going . We want to be strong and consistent but sometimes we’re not. Sometimes we are just like the Orchid we grow when conditions are prefect for us. Jeremiah 17:8 says β€œThey will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”Yeah, Orchids are pretty but they are just too complicated just like us. Complicated is when we let something someone said about us stick to us or a set back take us out.God wants us to be like an Oak tree, an Oak tree grows no matter the situation, no matter the conditions life throws at it. The Oak tree never stop growing and flourishing. It’s roots run deep it may shake even bend but it won’t break.

β€œPotted plants may bloom but only planted plants flourish”

Psalms 92:12-14β€œThe righteous shall flourish like a palm tree,He shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon.Those who are planted in the house of the LordShall flourish in the courts of our God.They shall still bear fruit in old age;They shall be fresh and flourishing,”

As the weekend approaches remember this: “Thou Shall Flourish “πŸ₯€πŸŒ·πŸŒΉπŸŒ»πŸŒΈπŸŒΊ

The one that got away

Old love thank you for breaking my heart. It was my fault for putting my trust in someone that wasn’t God. Classic mistake I blame me. You knew I loved you so you became reckless; with something that meant the world to me. Not realizing that a heart like mines you’d never be blessed with again. You took my kindness for granted my loyalty and friendship meant nothing to you. But , I guess that’s what happens when you place your heart in the hands of a β€œman-child” . Momma always told me to guard it, daddy always made sure to remind me; no man in this world will ever love you like me . But silly of me to think that I could have you for my guy. It’s okay truly it is love, because God is the potter and I am the clay. He has mastered the art of repairing broken pots like me. I don’t hate you and in many ways I still love you. It was never your responsibility to love a woman like me. But, old friend this is where I leave you. I pray for the man that you are and the man you’re going to be. May the mistake of the boy grow you into the man God designed in the womb.

Sincerely ,

The one who got away ❀️

P.S. I love you

The journey that it took to get to you. The tears that I cried that only me and God knew. He designated this day , this time just for me and you. For all the broken promises and the heart breaks all served as stepping stones to get to you. I use to stay up at night , praying to God that one day he would send someone, just for me. He knew what I needed when I needed it.

I heard an old country song; one day on the radio. β€œ God bless the broken road that lead me straight to you.” If I could do it all again and choose a different route to get to you , I wouldn’t ; I would still take the road less traveled just to end up right here with you.

We all pray for that fairy tale kind of love story the one we read about ; and see on t.v . But what about the love story of someone who willingly laid his life down for love. ||John 3:16|| Or what about the ways of love found in || 1 Corinthians 13||

𝒯𝒽𝑒 π’²π’Άπ“Ž π‘œπ’» πΏπ‘œπ“‹π‘’

𝟣πŸ₯: 𝟦 πΏπ‘œπ“‹π‘’ π’Ύπ“ˆ 𝓅𝒢𝓉𝒾𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝒢𝓃𝒹 𝓀𝒾𝓃𝒹; π“π‘œπ“‹π‘’ π’Ήπ‘œπ‘’π“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π‘’π“ƒπ“‹π“Ž π‘œπ“‡ π’·π‘œπ’Άπ“ˆπ“‰; 𝒾𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π’Άπ“‡π“‡π‘œπ‘”π’Άπ“ƒπ“‰ 𝟧 π‘œπ“‡ π“‡π“Šπ’Ήπ‘’. 𝐼𝓉 π’Ήπ‘œπ‘’π“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π’Ύπ“ƒπ“ˆπ’Ύπ“ˆπ“‰ π‘œπ“ƒ π’Ύπ“‰π“ˆ π‘œπ“Œπ“ƒ π“Œπ’Άπ“Ž; 𝒾𝓉 π’Ύπ“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ 𝒾𝓇𝓇𝒾𝓉𝒢𝒷𝓁𝑒 π‘œπ“‡ π“‡π‘’π“ˆπ‘’π“ƒπ“‰π’»π“Šπ“;[𝒷] 𝟨 𝒾𝓉 π’Ήπ‘œπ‘’π“ˆ π“ƒπ‘œπ“‰ π“‡π‘’π’Ώπ‘œπ’Ύπ’Έπ‘’ 𝒢𝓉 π“Œπ“‡π‘œπ“ƒπ‘”π’Ήπ‘œπ’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”, π’·π“Šπ“‰ π“‡π‘’π’Ώπ‘œπ’Ύπ’Έπ‘’π“ˆ π“Œπ’Ύπ“‰π’½ 𝓉𝒽𝑒 π“‰π“‡π“Šπ“‰π’½. 𝟩 πΏπ‘œπ“‹π‘’ π’·π‘’π’Άπ“‡π“ˆ 𝒢𝓁𝓁 π“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ, π’·π‘’π“π’Ύπ‘’π“‹π‘’π“ˆ 𝒢𝓁𝓁 π“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ, π’½π‘œπ“…π‘’π“ˆ 𝒢𝓁𝓁 π“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ, π‘’π“ƒπ’Ήπ“Šπ“‡π‘’π“ˆ 𝒢𝓁𝓁 π“‰π’½π’Ύπ“ƒπ‘”π“ˆ.

πŸͺ πΏπ‘œπ“‹π‘’ 𝓃𝑒𝓋𝑒𝓇 π‘’π“ƒπ’Ήπ“ˆ.

See no one ever tells you, the truth about love. That love is a choice something you choose to do. Love is work something you have to put into action everyday. Love is sacrificing yourself for someone else. Love is motivation when you just feel like giving up. Love is truly giving of one self. Love is putting away pride and ego because you don’t want to lose the one person that gets you. I can spend all day telling you what love is and isn’t. But I won’t, I’ll just let you create your own beautiful unique love story.

The Chase

The Chase

We chase after what some call the American Dream. From jobs, cars, houses, money, and relationships. We get one thing and yet we are still not satisfied. Because the very thing we are longing for is not something this world could give us but only God.

It all starts and ends with Christ. The sole purpose of our existence, was to praise worship and server God. We were created with a purpose in mind.

The very thing that has the ability to complete us isn’t found on earth nor physically. It’s all a spiritually thing. Our hearts and soul long for the completeness of our father.

If you read in the Bible a lot of them had everything but still ran into issues of it not being enough. Or realizing that God was the only thing they truly wanted and needed. In the book of Timothy it tells us not to chase after riches, and the consequences when we do.

1 Timothy 6:9-11

9Β But those who chase riches are constantly falling into temptation and snares. They are regularly caught by their own stupid and harmful desires, dragged down and pulled under into ruin and destruction. 10Β For the love of moneyβ€”and what it can buyβ€”is the root of all sorts of evil. Some already have wandered away from the true faith because they craved what it had to offer; but when reaching for the prize, they found their hands and hearts pierced with many sorrows.

11Β Timothy, don’t let this happen to youβ€”run away from these things! You are a man of God. Your quest is for justice, godliness, faithfulness, love, perseverance, and gentleness.

Everything we need and could ever want is rooted in something and someone far more powerful than anything this world could ever give us. It is through him by which we may be completely free from chasing a lifestyle we will never obtain.

Wondering Heart

A heart searching for a home…

So many times we go through heart breaks, let downs, and disappointments. Which is the result of giving our hearts to the wrong person. Which if we’re honest they weren’t bad; just not the one God intend for us. But we went ahead of him.

Leaving our hearts shattered, broken, lonely, & confused. Questioning is love even real. So we then jump on the hamster wheel of life trying so desperately to find, that someone to give our hearts a home we long for.

We take it a step further spending all of our money in counseling, relationship coaches, workshops, & self help books. Going in broken coming out the same way. Trying to heal something that only God can heal.

We get into relationships with other broken people. Broken pieces trying to mend broken pieces. Broken hearts trying to heal broken hearts; adding more brokenness and dysfunction to our lives.

A quote I read which is fitting to this : “If you never heal from what hurt you, you’ll bleed on the people who didn’t cut you.”

What really is a heart without a home? What is true Love when you have become incapable of feeling anything? We search for it in people , places, & things. But we never take the time to seek the one who created it.


God was the first one to ever feel the beat of our hearts. He was the one connected to our hearts while we were yet in our mothers womb. He’s the only one who knows what our hearts sound like from the inside.

In the book of Songs of Solomon it warned us about awakening love before its time.


Promise me, O women of Jerusalem,

Β Β Β Β not to awaken love until the time is right.

Songs of Solomon 8:4

The warning wasn’t meant to scare us, but to caution us about the power that love really intel. The strength of love that if not handled carefully will change your whole life. The writer went on to repeat this warning two more time in different chapters in the book is Songs. (2:7; 3:5)

Don’t get me wrong I know we all have awaken love at one point in our life’s . I even have messed up & given my love away to soon & to all the wrong people who really wasn’t capable of loving me because they truly didn’t love their selves . Just trying to find that love we see in movies, magazines, on t.v., and social media. But, I’m here to tell you it’s okay. You can start over again, & one day God will send you that other person. That will give your heart that home it’s been search for.

The one that your heart feels at one with. Because when God truly joins two people together no man has the power to separate them. God has someone that will help him heal that which is broken, one that will love you more than you could ever imagine because they have the love of Christ within them. The one that will truly be your helpmate.

You’ll know when your heart has found its home, and it was sent from God. You won’t have to force it, manipulate it, or even fake it. It will truly be sent from heaven.

Matters of the Heart

Come as you are, we tend to hear that a lot growing up when it comes to attending churches. But God wasn’t talking about the church building , the clothes on our back , nor our outward appearance. He was talking about our souls/hearts, because God would rather have us in our mess then to never have us at all.

“He looks at our soul..”

We take it so lightly , but it is so much deeper God looks beyond the surface. Beyond what the human eye can see. He looks at the very thing clothes, makeup, and every other material thing cannot cover up. Β 

One thing about God is he sees us in every state we find ourselves in, and loves us the same. Listen, even at our lowest of low, in that dirty, nasty, pitiful place that we hide from everyone else. God sees us in our nakedness . His blood has the power and the ability to see past our flaws, hang ups, and failures.Β 

We get so caught up in our mess that we don’t see ourselves the way God sees us. We lose our sense of worth and value. Loosing the capability to truly become who he created us to be. Β 

“Our hearts connect us to Christ

1 Samuel 16:7

7 But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”

We go as far as looking at ourselves through the eyes of others, what they say and how they feel about us. As if they can see our hearts , or even have the ability to go beyond our physical makeup and features.Β  We as people don’t go pass what we see on the outside. ” Judging a book by its cover” we all have done it once upon a time. A famous quote that still holds weight today.Β 

This mindset has stopped us from getting to know a person or people for who they really are; and have gone as far as hindering our ministering of Gods word. Because if a person don’t look like us or talk like us to the point of don’t have as much as us. This mindset has brought us to shy away from them , talk down to them and treat them less than.Β 

John 13:34

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.”

I leave you with these 2 question that I have comes to ask even myself.

  1. Why can’t we see others the way God see them?Β 
  2. Why can’t we see ourselves the way God see us?

I pray that this blog finds its way into your hearts as it did mines while writing it. More to come . God is not done with me yet ! Stay Tuned Β -xoxo

Love Lauren Inez

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Single & Complete

Trusting God while in your single season is very hard. Due to when you look around all you see is people, in what looks to be happily ever after relationships. Relationships and sex are at an all time high, in todays culture “the it thing to do” the trend. If you aren’t in a relationship something has to be wrong with you.

Social media is covered in it from “Man Crush Monday” to “National Boyfriend Day” . So it leaves you to question God and ask Lord what’s wrong with me? What did I do? Why does no one want me? We began to feel incomplete. Less than, left out, and incapable of being wanted by someone .

“We all long to beΒ  wanted by someone…..”

So we start to try and fix something that isn’t broken , or that isn’t incomplete. The bible say that God will supply our ever need according to his riches in heaven. That God knew Adam needed a helpmate so he made Eve. To Adam he saw nothing wrong with him but God knew that he would need someone. So why is it hard for us to wait on God, and allow him to send us someone.

This culture tells us that being in a relationship completes us that the longing we have is the lack of having someone of the opposite sex. When in fact, that is far from the truth; through Christ and only Him will we ever be complete. In Philippians 4:12-13 Paul wrote “I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation.”

Paul had been shipwrecked, beaten, and imprisoned. He knew what prosperity looked like and what poverty looked like as well. So being single is nothing compared to that of which Paul went through.

We get so caught up in “Oh no one wants me,” Forgetting that someone wanted you so bad that he was willing to give up his only son. That someone wanted you so bad that He was willing to lay his life down for you, so you could have the ultimate relationship with His Father.

See our view of being single has to change, being single isn’t in no way a bad thing. In that season you have the opportunity to build a relationship, one that goes beyond a social media post. You have a chance to build a relationship that will change your whole entire life.

In order to be complete you have to have the Father within you, there is no other way. We as people search for and long for the completeness of another individual. The Lord will never allow another people to for fill you or to complete that emptiness you long and search to fill. For only throughΒ  the Son of God you shall be complete.

Colossian 2:10 “And you are in Him, made full and having come to fullness of life [in Christ you too are filled with the Godhead — “Father, Son and Holy Spirit — “and reach full spiritual stature]. And He is the Head of all rule and authority [of every angelic principality and power].”

In Gods timing He will send the person he has just for you, when we don’t want to wait on the Father we get into relationships he never intended for us to be in. The outcome of those relationship is more brokenness .Β  Not bashing dating websites or any social media platform, but that was never Gods will for us. To spend our lives searching for someone to love.

“We lose ourselves trying to find someone else”

I leave you with this, I haven’t always had this mindset that I’m writing about. I truly had to come to the realization that, being single meant being whole. Discovering who I was, becoming the woman God created. Being somebody before even being somebodies. Becoming whole from past relationships and hurts, allowing myself with the help of Christ to heal. Becoming complete in Him first , knowing that once I do that he would give me the desires of my heart.

I didn’t want to be just a beautiful face full of broken pieces, empty truly incapable of receiving and giving love. Damaged goods, wondering around looking for someone to put me back together again. In trusting God to do what he did for Adam and so many more, who gave all of themselves to Him.

Philippians 1:6- “And I am convinced and sure of this very thing, that He Who began a good work in you will continue until the day of Jesus Christ [right up to the time of His return], developing [that good work] and perfecting and bringing it to full completion in you.”

Wilderness Journey

Written by: Silena Deon Dowling

Exodus 16:4 β€œThen the Lord said to Moses, β€˜I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they will follow my instruction”

Often when I read about the Israelites in the old testament I can’t help but notice while they were sometimes a hot mess. They mirror us in todays culture so well. God performed magnificent miracle right in their presence. He vividly showed them His glory on many occasions. Yet walking on dry ground in between walls of the raging Red Sea didn’t stop the Israelites from grumbling and complaining a short time after this.

β€œIf only we had died by the Lord’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have brought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death. Exodus 16:3”

I like to think that this attitude wasn’t caused by being hangry but, being in the unknown. I can relate to the Israelites while I like change, I would much rather have them be painless and controllable. Yes, I know God is all mighty and sovereign. But fleshly nature would’ve much rather went straight from Egypt to the land of milk and honey. Or in my case Straight from college to my dream job. Β 

The definition of β€œwilderness” is an uncultivated; wasteland. In my mind 20s and I feel as though I’m in the wilderness, nothings cultivated just yet walking; walking around confused.

Just like the Israelites I’ve personally seen God do great things in my life and lives of others. But at times I find myself camped in the Desert of sin asking why? There’s no coincidence that today I woke up thinking and reviewing the season I’m currently in.

This lead me to open my Bible and read about the Israelites just briefly after their escape from Egypt. I began in Exodus 16, it opens to the Egyptians reminiscing on the β€œgood old days”. When while they were oppressed slaves, at least they sat around pots of meat.

“And I realized we often long for the past even though the conditions weren’t all that great but somewhat in our minds easier. “

Which in fact, if we are honest the good old days had their fair share of challenges as well. So why do we over glamorize the past in difficult times? Is it because we don’t trust God to carry us through the unknown. So, we much rather go back to familiar even though it’s no good.

As I read on in Exodus 16 the Wilderness did not seem so bad, in fact it seemed like the best place to be. They were near to God in the wilderness. He guided, He provided, He instructed, and He protected them daily!

As He does for all of us. But what the Lord also did was test their obedience and this revealed who they were, yet He stilled loved them.

Here in my own unknown aka 20s, God is also revealing things to me. About me. Behaviors and Attitudes ;that I so easily mask when the SUN is shining and the weathers good in my life. But when the weather conditions aren’t favorable, and a storm hits my flesh acts out. I throw fits, selfish ambition sets in, doubt and fear. Just like the Israelites, I’m a hot mess.

You see, most people can’t even picture me behaving this way and at times I surprise myself. But God knows, and He wants me to know that these types of characteristics are not of Him. The wilderness and or trails exposes what’s inside of us.

Pruning is the cutting away of dead and overgrown branches and trees. Pruning is done to increases fruitfulness. So being in an uncultivated place like the wilderness God can come in and start to do work.

Cutting of behaviors, habits, and attitudes that’s not rooted in him. All God wants is for us is to lean and depend on him. Obey His instructions and have faith in Him to do the work.

Note to self and anyone who feels like they’re in a difficult or confusing season, take advantage of the wilderness. Lean in towards God, delight in Him, obey Him and trust the work He is doing.

“We serve a God too wise to not be trusted. You’re here for a divine reason.”

When the Israelites saw their enemy behind them and the Red Sea in front of them Moses spoke. He said, β€œThe Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still

Exodus 14:14”. To Be Still is to calm your anxieties, quiet your fears and don’t go about doing things the fleshly way.

Be still and know:

God keeps His promises.

God provides for His children.

God’s pruning is necessary.